Something has to give. I cannot continue to be this unhappy. It’s not fair to anyone around me and mostly it’s not fair to me. As upset as I may be about the state of my life these days, I need to a) stop comparing it to my life from six years ago, b) stop comparing it to other people and c) make sure that I am doing what I can every day to make myself a little bit happier.
(For some reference six years ago, I was working a demanding but very good job that I thought was going to lead to a fulfilling career, I was in a relationship that I thought would maybe one day lead to marriage and children, and I was in the process of buying my first condominium. For comparison, today I am working a contract job grading standardized tests which is kind of mind numbingly boring and hopefully not indicative of the direction of my career (although I am actively working on that, so hopefully the job part is a temporary situation, but it’s been over a year since I’ve been on a real career path), I’m in a great relationship with a wonderful man, but it’s a relationship that does not seem to be moving me any closer to marriage or children and I’m living in a crappy rental apartment while I lease out my condo (in a different city) for no profit at all and am waiting to sell until the day when I can at least make back my investment and pay off my mortgage… okay really just pay off my mortgage).
Anyway, back to the point, It can be very difficult when I read and hear about my friends’ career accomplishments, their marriages/relationship milestones and their children, but I also love hearing those things. I don’t want that it to be so difficult anymore. I don’t want to be cancelling out my genuine happiness for others with stupid jealousy. Really, I just want to be able to be happy for them and happy for me and stop comparing my life to what it was or to some outdated notion of what it could or should be because what is that they say about the best laid plans?
So today, let’s throw the plans out the window. Today is April 1, 2014. To some of you that might mean April Fools’ Day, but I really hate tricks and pranks, so I choose to ignore that. More importantly it is the first day of a brand-new month, and what better day is there to re-dedicate myself to some of the goals that I’ve perhaps been slipping up with lately and to set a few new complementary goals to keep me going, enhance my progress and make me not just healthier but happier.
My hope is that sharing these goals and my process and progress with you every day will help me to hold myself accountable.
So without further ado here’s the plan:
1. Find something to be happy about every day. This is actually already been doing this for about two weeks with my Instagram with 100 happy days and you can see my Instagram post on the right sidebar. I will continue to do this because I think that it’s important and hopefully I will also remember to at least share the words here with you if I don’t always remember to cross post the pictures
2. In the month of April I would like to walk 400,000 steps. That’s about 100,000 more steps than I would normally walk in a month, given my existing goal of approximately 10,000 steps per day. I have no idea whether that’s realistic goal, whether once added to my next one it will be very easy, or whether it may be a challenge. I have no clue but we’ll see how it goes I track my with Fitbit One and I will (hopefully) share my step count with you at the end of the day. For the past few months, I’ve been pretty good about hitting 10,000/day, as long as you don’t include the days where I didn’t wear my Fitbit and it only counts if I’m wearing my Fitbit. So, 400,000 this month. Starts today. Go. (edited because I originally wrote a goal of 50,000, which I’ll hit in less than 5 days. math, yeah.)
3. I would also like to get back into meal planning and really be good about sticking to it. I need to start now because it’s going to be especially important in the second half of the month when I have a job that will involve working out of the house, which means I’ll have to bring my breakfast and lunch with me to work and then prepare dinner when I get home tired (as opposed to now, when I can use my kitchen during my breaks and at lunch). This was something I got pretty good at a few months ago and I slowly let it slip as I haven’t really needed to do it in order to continue to prepare healthy meals, but I’d like to get back into the habit both for nutritional and financial reasons. I know that it really does make me eat healthier, I also know that it means I don’t run out of ingredients and I don’t waste food. So, twice a week I anticipate sharing my meal plan with you and letting you know how I have kept it up or not in any given week. And I’ll keep posting recipes (or at least giving cookbook references) as much as possible.
4. Finally and I think that this is the part that I really need to share for the accountability is that I am going to train for a half marathon. (Expect a lot of posts soon on running. Many of them are sitting half drafted right now, and as I start to run more, I imagine I’ll finish them). Right now the half marathon I have in mind is the rock ‘n roll in Chicago in July but that might change depending on some other things in the next couple of months, so I haven’t actually registered, but that doesn’t mean I can’t or shouldn’t start training. And if life gets in the way and I end up having to do one in August or September, that’s just fine, it would still meet my goal. I would still be prepared for it and I’d rather be prepared a little bit too early than too late. I’m hoping to share my training experiences with you; to write about my running, my cross training, my strength training and how I fuel myself to do this.
So what does all of this actually mean for the blog? Well to start, it means that I hopefully will blog at least once if not more than once every day. However… I think that a lot of those blog posts are going to be quick daily wrap-ups, listing my steps, my food successes (and failures) and my workout log. Oh, and my daily happies. I hope that you will continue to read and perhaps comment as I embark on this journey!
This week’s meal plan (through Thursday) plus more coming later. Stay tuned!